The next morning in India, she start brooding about David,
when she is in India she should be happy, but now all she can think about is
her ex-boyfriend? The chattering, negative thoughts in her mind scattered. An
intense, vibrating, awed silence. And then, in that regal silence, she began to
meditate with God. Liz also came to India to take medication and about God
also. in the Gurugita, the goddess is asking the god for the secrets of worldly
fulfillment, and he is telling her. So Liz hoped that her feelings about the
gurugita would change during her stay at the Ashram. But what she think was
wrong, gurugita was shifted her from simple dislike to solid dread. Liz has
decided to stay at the Ashram, this was not her original plan. Her original
plan had been to stay here for just six weeks. She wants to travel around India
to looking for God. In the search for
God, you revert form what attracts you and swim toward that which id difficult.
Liz wants god, So her prayers are becoming more deliberate and specific.
Every morning before meditation, she kneels in the temple and talk for a few
minute to God. And then to her surprise, when she is in medication, she has
invited her ex-husband to join her in medication. She almost to cry when she
met her husband, but quickly realized that she didn’t need to.
Richard,
her friend has taught her many things during those days in India. Before he go
back to Texas he said to Liz that” find
somebody new to love someday. Take the time to heal, but don’t forget to
eventually share your heart with someone. Don’t make your life a monument to
David or to your ex-husband.” “after
all, remember what they say sometimes that best way to get over someone is to
get under someone else.” Finally one
day, when she went to practice yoga, she feels that her body felt so alive and
healthy. It was pure, this love that she was feeling. It was godly. She looked
around the darkened valley and she could see nothing that was not God. She felt
so deeply, terribly, happy. Her flight leaves India at four in the morning. She
decided not to go to sleep at tall that night, but to spend the whole evening
in one of the meditation caves, in prayer.
Liz has
never had less of a plan in her life than she does upon arrival in Bali. She
doesn’t know where she’s going to live, or what she’s going to do. She has no
friends in Indonesia. But Bali is a fairly simple place to navigate. People in
Bali also can speak English very well. In the very afternoon after Liz has
arrived at Bali, she suddenly on the back of a motorbike, clutching her new
friend, Mario, the guy that she met at the hotel when she checked in. Liz has
really a good time with Mario, he promises Liz that he will teach her Balinese
meditation, find God for her in this way. Liz feels so free here in Bali. The
only thing that she has to do everyday is to visits Ketut Liyer, the Balinese
meditation few hours in the afternoon. Ketut is a famous Balinese meditation,
that some patients have to waiting for an hour to meet Ketut. Liz like to talk
with Ketut, but sometime she felt that Ketut don’t want her around, but when
she ask him, he answer that he wants Liz to come everyday, he always have time
for her, and Liz has to taught him English also. Liz told Ketut many things
that passed through her life, and Ketut has taught her many things that she
never knew before also.
One day she
met a girl, Wayan Nuriyasih, a Balinese healer. Wayan is a hands on doctor,
mixing herbs and medications in her own shop. She stayed in Wayan’s shop,
talking with her new best friend about her troubles. Wayan also has a trouble
in life. Liz has been here only a few weeks and she feels a rather
mission-accomplished sensation already.
She always keep remembering one of her guru’s teaching about happiness. She says that the people universally tend to
think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend
upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that’s not how
happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for
it, strive for it, insist upon it. At the moment, the person she’s enjoying
the most is Ketut, the old man, truly one of the happiest humans is giving Liz
a full access. One night Liz and Wayan go out to pub for relaxing. She met one
guy, Felipe, a guy that maybe can change her life forever. For the whole week,
she keeps herself occupied having dinner almost every night with Felipe the
Brazilian. Liz thinks that she has a crush on him, which hasn’t happed for a
long time. And she went out with Felipe more and more. Finally Felipe and Liz,
as they discover to our delight, are a perfectly matched. They spend every
night together. Liz has found a new boyfriend in Bali now. One day when she goes to vacation with Felipe,
she has really good time with him, when she walk through the beach she found
one empty notebook, then she open the first page of it and allowed her pencil
to document it in to word” I love you, I
will never leave you, I will always take care of you.” These words will be
the words that will carry with her from that now on until the last day of her
life.
And now she
is coming back to Gili Meno. Since she was last here. She has circled the
world, settled her divorce, survived her final separation from David, learned
to speak a new language. Finally she ‘s happy and healthy and balanced. And the
last thing is in love with her Brazilian lover.
-The end-
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