11/29/2012
11/22/2012
11/21/2012
e a t.p r a y.l o v e. 211-440 pages
The next morning in India, she start brooding about David,
when she is in India she should be happy, but now all she can think about is
her ex-boyfriend? The chattering, negative thoughts in her mind scattered. An
intense, vibrating, awed silence. And then, in that regal silence, she began to
meditate with God. Liz also came to India to take medication and about God
also. in the Gurugita, the goddess is asking the god for the secrets of worldly
fulfillment, and he is telling her. So Liz hoped that her feelings about the
gurugita would change during her stay at the Ashram. But what she think was
wrong, gurugita was shifted her from simple dislike to solid dread. Liz has
decided to stay at the Ashram, this was not her original plan. Her original
plan had been to stay here for just six weeks. She wants to travel around India
to looking for God. In the search for
God, you revert form what attracts you and swim toward that which id difficult.
Liz wants god, So her prayers are becoming more deliberate and specific.
Every morning before meditation, she kneels in the temple and talk for a few
minute to God. And then to her surprise, when she is in medication, she has
invited her ex-husband to join her in medication. She almost to cry when she
met her husband, but quickly realized that she didn’t need to.
Richard,
her friend has taught her many things during those days in India. Before he go
back to Texas he said to Liz that” find
somebody new to love someday. Take the time to heal, but don’t forget to
eventually share your heart with someone. Don’t make your life a monument to
David or to your ex-husband.” “after
all, remember what they say sometimes that best way to get over someone is to
get under someone else.” Finally one
day, when she went to practice yoga, she feels that her body felt so alive and
healthy. It was pure, this love that she was feeling. It was godly. She looked
around the darkened valley and she could see nothing that was not God. She felt
so deeply, terribly, happy. Her flight leaves India at four in the morning. She
decided not to go to sleep at tall that night, but to spend the whole evening
in one of the meditation caves, in prayer.
Liz has
never had less of a plan in her life than she does upon arrival in Bali. She
doesn’t know where she’s going to live, or what she’s going to do. She has no
friends in Indonesia. But Bali is a fairly simple place to navigate. People in
Bali also can speak English very well. In the very afternoon after Liz has
arrived at Bali, she suddenly on the back of a motorbike, clutching her new
friend, Mario, the guy that she met at the hotel when she checked in. Liz has
really a good time with Mario, he promises Liz that he will teach her Balinese
meditation, find God for her in this way. Liz feels so free here in Bali. The
only thing that she has to do everyday is to visits Ketut Liyer, the Balinese
meditation few hours in the afternoon. Ketut is a famous Balinese meditation,
that some patients have to waiting for an hour to meet Ketut. Liz like to talk
with Ketut, but sometime she felt that Ketut don’t want her around, but when
she ask him, he answer that he wants Liz to come everyday, he always have time
for her, and Liz has to taught him English also. Liz told Ketut many things
that passed through her life, and Ketut has taught her many things that she
never knew before also.
One day she
met a girl, Wayan Nuriyasih, a Balinese healer. Wayan is a hands on doctor,
mixing herbs and medications in her own shop. She stayed in Wayan’s shop,
talking with her new best friend about her troubles. Wayan also has a trouble
in life. Liz has been here only a few weeks and she feels a rather
mission-accomplished sensation already.
She always keep remembering one of her guru’s teaching about happiness. She says that the people universally tend to
think that happiness is a stroke of luck, something that will maybe descend
upon you like fine weather if you’re fortunate enough. But that’s not how
happiness works. Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for
it, strive for it, insist upon it. At the moment, the person she’s enjoying
the most is Ketut, the old man, truly one of the happiest humans is giving Liz
a full access. One night Liz and Wayan go out to pub for relaxing. She met one
guy, Felipe, a guy that maybe can change her life forever. For the whole week,
she keeps herself occupied having dinner almost every night with Felipe the
Brazilian. Liz thinks that she has a crush on him, which hasn’t happed for a
long time. And she went out with Felipe more and more. Finally Felipe and Liz,
as they discover to our delight, are a perfectly matched. They spend every
night together. Liz has found a new boyfriend in Bali now. One day when she goes to vacation with Felipe,
she has really good time with him, when she walk through the beach she found
one empty notebook, then she open the first page of it and allowed her pencil
to document it in to word” I love you, I
will never leave you, I will always take care of you.” These words will be
the words that will carry with her from that now on until the last day of her
life.
And now she
is coming back to Gili Meno. Since she was last here. She has circled the
world, settled her divorce, survived her final separation from David, learned
to speak a new language. Finally she ‘s happy and healthy and balanced. And the
last thing is in love with her Brazilian lover.
-The end-
11/18/2012
e a t.p r a y.l o v e. 100-210 pages
One day Liz
met a young Australian girl. She gave her directions to the train station. She
was heading up to Slovenia. When Liz heard this girl plans, she suddenly
realizes that she wants to go Slovenia. And now Liz is in the Slovenia, Liz and
her friend, Sofia went to eat some pizza. This pizza is so thin, doughy,
strong, gummy, yummy, chewy, salt. It’s a miracle. In this happiness that Liz
has when she is in Italy makes she thinks that when she return to Rome she
suppose to do something about David. It’s maybe the time for Liz and David have
to end their story forever. She was thinking back when she was with David, she
used to think that she can’t live without this guy, this guy is her everything
but now when she’s in Italy, she finds her happiness, she started to think
about herself. Then Liz started to close her eyes and think about what her
mother had said ten years ago. Her mother has made choices in her life, as we
all must, and she is at peace with them, and how about Liz, what is her choice.
She can’t imagine her life with out David, but something about her recent joy
in Naples has made her certain that she not only can find happiness without
David but she must. So she decided to say goodbye to David. So she writes him
an e-mail. Liz feels so sad to say goodbye to David, she knows that she’s
choosing her happiness over suffering, but she has to do for her happy life.
Liz’s
sister arrival in Rome a few days later helped nudge my attention away from
lingering sadness over David and helped her to bring her back to speech. Her
sister’s name is Catherine. Liz’s sister comes to visit Liz in Rome, in her new
city. Liz and her sister had a good time together. Liz so surprised sometime to
notice that her sister is a wife and a mother, but Liz is just a woman. But now
she was happy to live on her own. Over the next six weeks, she travels to
Bologna, Florence, Venice, Sicily, Sardinia, once more down to Naples, then
over to Calabria. There are short trips. Liz was dropped out of her Italian
language school. These spontaneous travel such a glorious twirl of time. She
can go wherever she wants. Then Liz went to Florence, to visits her uncle. Few
days later she came back to Rome for Luca Spaghetti’s birthday. Luca would want
to use this birthday to celebrate an American Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is a
nice holiday. Liz’s friend, Deborah has come to Rome from Philadelphia for the
weekend, to celebrate the holiday with Liz. Sofia will be coming to Luca’s
party also. Liz really had a good time with her friends, Liz and her friends
drive out of tired, stressed out Rome late in the evening, up into the
mountains. Party doesn’t end until almost dawn.
Liz
couldn’t hold out. None of her pants, couldn’t fit anymore. She gained twenty-three pounds in her four
months of Italy. So now she have to go shopping to buy her new clothes. Now Liz
has only a week left here. She’s planning to go back to America for Christmas
before flying to India. Its have been amazing months that she was spending in
Italy. She felt a glimmer of happiness when she started to studying Italian.
You were given life; it is your duty to
find something beautiful within life, no matter how slight. Liz came to
Italy pinched and thin. She did not know yet what she deserved. But she does
know that she have collected herself of late through the enjoyment of harmless
pleasure.
Now Liz has
arrived in India. The first say in India, Liz went to around the India that she
could go. She went to see the great Vietnamese monk, poet and peacemaker. She
has learnt many things from the Vietnamese monk, that’s can teach about her
life. One of her first roommates at the Ashram was a middle aged
African-American devout Baptist and medication instructor from South Carolina.
During Liz stay here at the Ashram, there were never more than a few hundred
residents at any time. There are also some long term paid staffers at the
Ashram, but most of the work here is done by the students themselves. The
students here are about equally divided between Indians and Westerns. Courses
are taught in both Hindi and English. For an adult that come to work in India,
you must demonstrate that you are also a sensible and practical human being.
They want you to come here strong because Ashram life is rigorous. Liz’s guru
always say that only one thing will happen when you come to the Ashram that you
will discover who you really are.
11/15/2012
e a t.p r a y.l o v e. 51-100
Liz is not a best traveler in the world. She is bad
or lazy at researching a place before travel. She is usually end up with
spending a lot of time standing in the middle of the train station feeling
confused, or dropping way too much money on hotels because she don't know
better. Liz also has a shortage of personal coolness, which can be trouble her
in travel. She has never learned how to arrange her face into that blank
expression of competent invisibility that is so useful when traveling in
dangerous, foreign place. When she is excited or nervous, she looked excited
and nervous. Liz’s face is transparent transmitter of every thought. But still
traveling is the great true love of her life. And she also has her own set of
survival techniques, that she’s patient, she is a fearless eater. And she also
has one talents, she can make friends with anybody.
First, Liz must settle into school, she came here
to study Italian. Her classes begin today at the Leonardo da Vinci Academy of
Language Studies, where she will be studying Italian five days a week, four
hours a day. She has to take a test on the first day at Leonardo da Vinci, in
order to be placed in the proper level of Italian class for her abilities. Liz
chose to take level two, but when she takes the test, it’s quiet hard for her.
But finally she can be in level two. Classes begin in the afternoon. She has
realized that level two is really impossibly hard. The teachers, is going way
too fast, skipping over whole chapters of the textbook. Just as soon as the break
comes, she ran out of that classroom and scurry all the way over to the
administration, then she beg in very clear English if they could please move
her down to level one class.
Depression and Loneliness track Liz down after
about ten days in Italy. They come upon Liz all silent and menacing, depression
on her left, and loneliness on her right. She’s hoping to shake them, but they
keep following her, these two groups. Liz had stopped taking her medication
only a few days earlier. She never wanted to be on the medication in the first
place, she was fought taking it for so long, mainly because of her stress, and
depression about her life. She tried so hard to fight the endless sobbing. But
finally Liz has to go to see the psychiatrist doctor. Then he put her on a few
different drugs. And now Liz could feel an extra inch of daylight opening in
her mind, she also can finally sleep at night. But still, she never relaxed
into taking those drugs. She doesn’t want her entire life to be depends on
those drugs. And now she is in Rome, loneliness and depression come to attack
her again. But this time she decided to let herself off the hook from worrying
with herself to write in paper. She wants to speak with god. Then she started
to write it, and it’s helped her a lot.
Liz needed to make some friends, and now she has a
nice assortment of them. She knew two Elizabeths in Rome now, both are
American, and both are writers. Then Giovanni and Dario, her Tandem Language
Exchange fantasy twins. She also become friends with a cool couple named Maria
and Giulio, he is the one who taught Liz Italian, and Liz also taught him back
English. Liz’s parents have a small farm, and her sister and Liz grew up
working. Liz and her sister taught to be dependable. Americans work harder and
longer and more stressful hours than anyone in the world today. Americas don’t
really know how to do nothing. But Italian is not like American. The wonderful Italian
expression: the art of making something out of nothing. Liz come to Italy to
define what is pleasure is. The amount of pleasure this eating and speaking
brought to her was inestimable. Liz love Italy.
11/13/2012
e a t.p r a y.l o v e. 1-50
The story began
with the life of one woman, Elizabeth or Liz, who first have everything. She
has a perfect life, marriage, study. But three years ago her life began to
changed: a moment which also found her in this exact same posture: on her knees,
on a floor, praying. That’s three years ago she lived with her husband. Liz
supposed to be happy with this marriage but no she say to herself that she
doesn’t wants to be married again. She supposed want to have a baby with her
husband, who have been living with her 8 years. Her husband was sleeping in
other room. She equal parts loved him, but could not stand for him. She
wouldn’t wake her husband up to share in her distress, because he already
watching Liz behave likes a madwoman for 3 months already. And her husband has
losing his patient with it. Liz and her husband have been fighting and crying.
And from that she started to pray to god. Liz wants to talk with god but she
doesn’t know what to say, until one night she think that she can’t handle it
anymore so she started to pray to god about what is happening through her life
now. She ask god to tell her what to do. And there’s a reply, it’s was her
voice but it’s full with warmth of affection. The voice said “go back to bed
Liz.” This brings her even close to god. Liz and her husband went from people
who knew each other the best in the world to being a pair of the most mutually
incomprehensible strangers who ever lived. Then months passed her life hung in
limbo as she waited to be released. As she and her husband were living
separately, but nothing was resolved. And then there was David, the guy she
fall in love with after marriage. She moved right in with David after she left
her husband. David and her met because he was performing in a play based on
short stories she was written. They have such a great time together during
those early months when he was still her romantic hero. The first summer of Liz
and David looked like the failing in love montage of every romantic movie you
have ever seen. As that time she still thinking her divorce might actually
proceed gracefully. Then David suddenly emotional back-stepping. Then things
started to look up somewhat when she moved out of David’s place in early 2002
and found her own apartment the first time of her life. David and Liz had
broken up for good. The other notable thing that was happening during that time
was the newfound adventure of spiritual discipline. In the meantime, though,
she had to go on this trip on Indonesia, because of magazine assignment. While
she’s here, she is going to visit a ninth generation Balinese medicine man. Liz
can ask any question, then she choose to say that “I want to have a lasting
experience of god. Then kitut said so find the balance you want, you must look
through your heart, instead. That way Liz will know god. And kitut said about
everything in Liz’s life. He knows everything. So after she came back she
started to thinking what she want to do, and suddenly she’s thinking that she
want to go to Italy or India or Indonesia. And eventually she wants to travel
all of them. Now she have been waiting for her husband to sign to divorced so
her life will be free, everyday she called her lawyer fourteen times to ask the
news about the divorced. Few days later she got good news from her lawyer that
her husband was signed it. Then a few weeks later, Liz is in Italy. Liz was
lived in Rome. The first week she lived in Rome was nothing much except for
food. When she finished her meal she walked through the building to go back to
her apartment. When Liz come back to her apartment she lay down in her new bed
and turn off the light. She waited herself to crying or worrying, since that’s
what usually happened to her, but she actually felt okay, she felt fine. And this
is just a beginning of the Liz’s story in Rome.
11/07/2012
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